For those who have been part of my 2006, 2007 and 2008...
thank you so much for the memories! :)

for those who visited this blog, by coincidence or no  coincidence...
thank you for posting your comments on any of my 300+ blogposts. :)
thank you for the tags as well! ;)
please feel free to tag and comment if you happen to drop by here :)

i'm gonna miss this blog...
but i didn't stop writing though. i just got myself another blog somewhere... :)
a new blog for the new chapter of my life.. :)


xox,
carla

advance happy 1st monthsary to us! :)



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Hmnn where do i begin? :)

The first time i saw aedner was way back in april 2008. i just came home from an onshore assignment in new york then. there were lotsa new faces in the ODC, and one of 'em was Aedner. Later i found out that we actually belong to the same project but of different teams. he belongs to the offshore testing team while i belong to the data-prep team. We we're not acquainted at all. as far as i can remember, our paths never crossed in hallways or in office aisles. pardon, but i really forgot how i first heard or knew his name. yet, i can somehow recall the name coz it's unique.. i've never known anyone named 'aedner'. never seen him in the 37th floor for i dunno how long. i am also not aware that his workstation was transferred to the 39th floor..we're simply colleagues at work then. :)

A few months later came the announcement of onshore assignment in Illinois , initially via email. The first thing i did was find out who the other eleven persons i'm gonna work with for that proj. Amongst the 11, i was only familiar of two names and one of the two is randy tolentino (aedner's real name).   So what's the etymology of 'Aedner'? Accdg to Randy Tolentino himself, Aedner is how you read Randy backwards..just like a palindrome. Hmnn with some twist on the pronunciation I guess just to make it sound....nice :) My first conversation with Aedner was..... during our handover call , two days before our flight date..askin' me about my flight details and the reason why I haven't joined the team dinner prior the handover call..twas just actually a short, simple conversation.. :)

I just got to know more about Aedner during our flight from Japan to Chicago . We were seated together on the rear of the plane. We were both complaining on the disturbing sound of the roaring plane engine that wouldn't permit us to sleep. :P In between meals or whenever we're both awake, we share a good conversation…anything goes. :) We also had vodka with apple juice. :) twas a bad timing drinking vodka in the midst of turbulence. waaah! Got me tipsy..but I'm glad I didn't vomit! Waahaa! ..This plane incident was not the start of romance but the start of friendship. :)

During our first few weeks in Chicago , we spent most of the time together simply because we're on the same car pool.. we share a smooth ride to and from the office...go to places together…hang out together…even at the office, our workstations were just next to each other..i was just simply enjoying the camaraderie then..nothing more than that. :)

A few more weeks pass by…i got to know aedner more...appreciating things he did not just for me but to his team/friends as well.   Honestly, I find him sweet not just to his friends but most of all to his family. I got to know the persons who play a meaningful part in his life based from his stories.. (but not his past romantic relationships. believe me I knew nothing about his past relationships then. All I know is that that he's single   and available :P) Unconsciously I got used to spending time with the group with Aedner always by my side or somewhere close to me. :) At that time, all I know is that I enjoy his company. :) It never crossed my mind that he's treating me special amongst the rest. Believe me, I couldn't tell! really!... OR is it just me, not giving malice on his acts?  OR am i not sensitive enough to know? Truth is, I dunno exactly how my 'special' feeling for him started bugging the aorta of my heart and the hypothalamus of my brain. :) it just happened :) then it grew into something I unconsciously wouldn't admit..or I unconsciously wouldn't want to define.. coz I'm scared to face the 'truth' that what I felt was REAL and still struggling to determine by that time if the feeling is either WRONG or RIGHT!..haayz… I was afraid that if I would listen carefully and paid much attention to the rhythm of my heart, I would eventually...FALL for him. *sigh*
I admit, I'm careful with my actions as well as in choosing my words just so it wouldn't show :P i'de rather keep the feeling to myself alone..but at the same time battling with my own heart, trying to suppress my feelings! waaah! twas so complicated! but i still chose to suppress my real emotions and was contented to keep it that way..for me, twas best if i kept it that way.

Time has come for the magic 10 to go back to ODC..everyone seems extremely happy and excited going home to meet their loved ones and friends.. yes, I do miss my family and friends too and I am happy to see them again…but a part of me was partly torn apart..and it's because Aedner's not coming back with us to phil…the thought that   I only have a couple of days left to talk to him…listen to his stories…fool around with him…sit next to him.. made me feel so SAD...   :(
But still, i didn't want him or anyone else from the team to notice that i was sadder than sad, especially on our last day in Illinois. :(  i tried to hold back the tears when i waved goodbye...i can feel the lump of pain stuck in my throat from trying to hold back..in the corners of my mind i was trying to convince myself i would be ok and that i have to eventually move on... :(

The following week upon my arrival in phil, Aedner constantly kept in touch thru ym voice, chat, and phone calls. and to keep the long story short... somewhere in the middle of our conversation, he just confessed his feelings for me, saying he's serious in courting me..i think by that time, he was able to say everything he was supposed to say and tell me things i was supposed to know *blush*. :) so let's just keep it that way *wink*.. honestly, i was surprised because i really wasn't expecting that's how special I am to him..as he is to me :) the truth is, i really couldn't tell by his gestures that he likes me then though i felt his thoughtfulness and care...coz as per my observation, he's also doing the same thing to his friends..well, well he's "maasikaso", sweet and thoughtful in nature. :) *ehem!* ..the same reason why he got my "i'm yours" aka "YES!!!" :)
yes, i borrowed the words "i'm yours" from jason mraz song to confirm that it's official. :) and now i'm officially his! and he's mine. :) so this is how it feels. :) weeeeee! :D
yes, i am inspired.  and he is! At first we're a lil confused of the date and time hehe coz we're in different time zones. but we decided to follow Chicago time. after all, that's where it all started. :)

This is just the first chapter of our love story. many things are yet to unfold. May God continue to bless and guide us as we unravel His plan for both of us. :)
and yes, i'm happy. he's happy. we are in love! :D

miss ko na bebe ku :( i just sent him an email, telling him what i feel at this point in time..
we exchanged sms and talk everyday but it seems that i still miss him badly.. :(
i just dunno what to do to ease the sadness i feel tonight..  :(
but i'll patiently wait till he gets back.

*sigh*

let the rain fall, i don't care! i'm yours and suddenly you're mine..and it's brighter than sunshine! ;)

i won't hesitate no more, no more. it cannot wait, i'm sure. there's no need to complicate our time is short! this is our fate..I'M YOURS :) -- jason mraz

I'm Yours by jason mraz is a beautiful reggae music. i like the rythm. thanks cholo for sharing this song to the team :) making it one of the PBM team's theme song. :)
but i never thought that this song would play a big part in my lovelife :) his face crosses my mind everytime i heard the line "this is our fate...i'm yours" wishfully thinking i'm his and he's mine. :) the following day, i've seen the lyrics of the song posted in his blog too. i just smiled with vivid imaginations playing in my mind. :) and yes, i borrowed the words "i'm yours" from jason mraz song to confirm that it's official. :)
and now i'm officially his! and he's mine. :) so this is how it feels. :) weeeeee! :D
yes, i am inspired.  and he is! take a look at his blog entry a few minutes after i'm  his. :) At first we're a lil confused of the date and time hehe coz we're in different time zones. but we decided to follow Chicago time. after all, that's where it all started. :)



and yes, this is the first chapter of our story. this is just the beginning. many things are yet to unfold. May God continue to bless and guide us both as we unravel His plan for us together. :)

and yes, i'm happy. he's happy. we are happy! :D

when i first read this poem, i couldn't stop the tears from falling down my eyes..the thought that I would be leaving soon without him made me feel so sad :( was fortunate that nobody came up to my workstation that time..i don't want anyone to see the tears and sadness in my eyes. i just want to keep what I really feel to myself. no one but myself.

it's been a looong day for me :) we went home at around 6:30pm. instead of heading to the venue of RCG Illinois team building this coming Saturday (jake is a member of one of the committee so he has to attend the meeting) he's also our official driver so we have no choice but to wait for him ;P hehehe i know, i know...that's just the way it is, we belong on the same car pool so we hafta compromise and respect each other's whereabouts. anyway, that's fine with me. :) we had a smooth ride on the way home. i enjoy the cool wind brushing my face from the car window. luhv it! :) i did a lil camwhoring on the backseat coz i just feel like it. hehe ;P and i'm alone in the backseat coz bernard went with cholo's group to garden fresh. so there! like a paparazzi i took pictures of almost anything i found interesting ;P anything goes! blurry, dark, bright, colorful and monochrome! ;P i took some videos too.. :) but i jst uploaded a few pleasant ones in my photobucket. just check it out. :P finally we're at arbor so we parted ways. i have a different apartment from jake and randy..as well as bernard's. well, the routine is (from Walgreens) we drop off bernard first, then me, then the two guys (coz they're housemates). but on mornings, i join my housemate jen's car pool with bert.. yeah, i'm sharing 2 carpools (it's the most convenient way for all of us anyway) ;P so my morning car service is a chrysler and my afternoon service is mazda 6. :) naks! well, either way i'm enjoying a smooth ride so thanks to jen and jake! :) when i went home, jen (my housemate) still wasn't home. i just headed directly in my room. first things first, turn on my laptop hihi. after a few minutes i received a call from randy inviting me to stroll around arbor lakes. yeah, jake-randy-carla tandem. we're buddies eversince our flight to japan-illinois! :) we're cool! hehe! sun still shines (yeah at 7:25pm! actually the sun sets at 9pm. which explains that days are longer during summer) and seems like a good weather to stroll around arbor lakes.. :) chillaxing, we stroll around the neighborhood. we went to arbor lake's club house..take a look at the gym..pool side..tennis court..the neighboring apartments as well as the neighboring village. :) yeah chillaxing on a chilly weather. hehe arbor lakes is a beautiful and peaceful place..green and clean! :) we enjoyed strolling around that we're planning to do it often after work. we're also planning to go to the gym or go swimming at the club house just to relax after a long day's work. that's nice! and hopefully we will be able to do things together as planned. we share lotsa stories while we stroll..we laugh our hearts out and enjoy the scenery around us. :) c-h-i-l-l. on our way back to our apartments we passed by tin®'s apartment. we invaded their place! haha! we had a lil chitchat, a snack hehe, and again camwhoring! hehe. we we're planning to watch Dark Knight on Thursday, have a team party at tin's place on Friday (it's nice coz they have a balcony and room space is wider to accomodate the 12 of us). is it a drinking spree session? or a videoke session? we still dunno :) hopefully plans will be finalized by tomorrow. :) But we can't stay up late though coz we have RCG Illinois teambuilding on Saturday! :) On Sunday, the 12 of us will be going downtown via train! weeeee! :) shopping time!!!! After going to Tin&Reg's apartment, we passed by Chris&Lawrence apartment..and we decided to drop by! again! at 9:30pm! nyaha! we went home at 10pm. jake and randy dropped me off at my apartment and went home. funny coz we walk briskly and took short cut routes on the way to my apartment coz we can't stand the chilly weather. they're both wearing shorts and i'm wearing a capri. perfect for the chilly weather eh? hehe ;P i wonder why summer could be this chilly...feels like early spring! :) anyway, have a chilly and starry night! :)

three-day notice is soooo short! waaaah!
heads up was yesterday but the final 12 was just announced this morning! whoaa!
i hafta pack up and prepare everything for just TWO days. yes, TWO days!
i filed a VL for tomorrow just to have everything set for Friday morning.
Chicago or no Chicago? that is the question. ;P
everything's still hangin'. well, based on past experience things can still change in
just a blink of an eye!
but we'll see this time... :) everything happens for a reason anyway. :)
PS. hmnn..maybe i'll better turn off my mobile phone 24 hours before the flight
para walang kokontra!hahahaha! ;P
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updates! :)
walang kumontra!!! :) tuloy na tuloy! hehehe
same flight kami nina randy and jake, tomorrow 9am. the rest of the gang are on saturday and sunday.
same kaming 3 na JAL flight and stop over at Narita Airport. (ulet! wow loyal! hehe)
then UA papuntang Chicago. hiwalay nga lang si jake ng plane.
we're expected to arrive Chicago by 2:19pm.
we're stayin' at Arbor Lakes and magkasama din kami sa car pool.
driver namen si jake. ;) ang saya makukuha na namin ang car sa Saturday afternoon! :D
sana makagala na agad kami! :) hehehe goodluck kay jake!

1. Whom did you last go out with?
- with my friend jaye anne :)

2. What do you want to receive on your birthday?
- anything :) it's the thought that counts :)

3. Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?
- bookshelf

4. What time did you sleep last night?
- around 12:30am...

5. What's the wallpaper on your computer?
- HP wallpaper...classic hehe

6. What can you hear besides the computer?
- music

7. Do you agree to the saying "to Forgive is to forget?
- yep. forgetting is the only way to wash away the bitterness and move on completely
8. When was the last time tears started to roll down your cheek?
- forgot the exact date but it happened this july lng. ;P

9. What/who makes you happy?
-family and friends and....doing something good for somebody :)

10. What makes you sad?
- kung may nagtatampo sakin ;(

11. What are your favorite books?
- inspirational books

12. What would you like to have right at this moment which seems totally impossible?
- malaman ang reason kung bakit xa nagkakaganyan. nahihirapan ako eh, di ko mabasa kilos nya. haaay

13. Who will you turn to if you have a huge probLem?
- God, family, and close friends

14. What's your favorite song/s at the moment?
- always be my baby by david cook. i like his version.

15. What was the last song that kept ringing on?
- hate that i love you by rihanna. last song syndrome. nyanya! ;P

16. What was the best event that happened last year?
- i dunno what to call it exactly..basta it happened around september to october of last year. :)

17. Where were you yesterday?
- ofc..FF..apartment

18. Last thing you ate?
-chicken burger and fries :)

19. Who are you with now?
- carla, krala, kulet and carluj :P hehe

20. Have you gone to the beach just w/ your buddies?
- yep yep

21. Do you love sunsets?
- yep, luv it! :)

22. When is your b-day?
- march 18

23. What are your wishes for your birthday?
-good health & long life for me and my loved ones

24. Who do you wanna be w/ on the day of your birthday?
- my loved ones :)

25. Have you ever felt that you've been taken for granted?
- uu.. haaay

26. Thing/s you regret?
- none. there's no room for regrets.
i can't turn things back anyway. so why spoil my mood in fretting and wishing i didn't do this and that? ;P

27. Is there anything else you want to do besides answering this survey?
- go to FF hehe...

28. What's the most important sentence/s that lingers in your mind now?
- God is good!

29. Why?
- coz with God, nothing is impossible.

30. Chocolate cake or brazo de mercedez?
- chocolate cake!

31. Do you like spongebob?
- Okay lang :)

32. Do you know how to play the guitar?
- no. nyahaha! cover your ears..i tell yah, cover your ears! :P

33. Who's the last person you texted?
- as per sent items...mama ko :)

34. KFC or Kenny Rogers?
- KFC!

35. Beach or CAMPING?
- beach! but i wanny try camping. never done that before.

36. Do you find yourself lonely?
-nope :)

37. Hotdogs or cheesedogs?
- both! :)

38. Do you like Shawarma?
- oks lang

39. Is there someone you're missing?
-yep..lotsa 'em. waaaaa!

40. Where did you go last Saturday?
- fort bonifacio :)